casondra's dream
about casondra and mike
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OK, so I, LIKE MIKE, HAD A DREAM IN A CAR. AND LIKE MIKE'S IT WAS A REOCCURING DREAM. BUT THE CHARACTER IS DIFFERENT EVERY TIME. So, in this dream, I had this about 2 nights ago and I totally couldn't sleep the rest of the night because of this dream...I was driving in the car with my boyfriend and all of a sudden there was this WOMAN in the car who is someone I knew very casually in high school and haven't seen SINCE high school. I don't know why the HELL she was in my dream, but there she is, in the car.
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I'm the passenger, my boyfriend is the driver, it's dark, everything is very dark, and murky, and she's totally naked, on him, as he's driving. SHE'S LIKE, TOTALLY STRRREEEETCHED OUT ON HIM, WHILE HE'S TRYING TO DRIVE, AND HE'S JUST TOTALLY LIKE, UNAFFECTED. He's just driving along, no emotion one way or another, and so then, um, I got really angry! And I'm like, how could you be doing this RIGHT in front of me? I'm right here! It was like I wasn't even there. |
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So I took this girl, 'cause she was the same age as high school--I mean, you know, she's as I remember her from 1988, 89--and um, she has this blond curly hair? Kinda small curls? So I took her by the hair, and there were lots of woods, we were driving through the woods, and I TOOK HER BY THE HAIR AND I TOOK HER INTO THE WOODS AND STARTED PULLING OUT CHUNKS OF HER HAIR ONE BY ONE. And it was very satisfying, just pulling out chunks of her hair. I'm not a violent person. I don't know why I had this violent dream. | |
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And then we were at this family gathering. It seemed to be his family, but not his immediate family. --family I haven't met yet. He has--in real life he has--family in Ohio, aunts and uncles and so forth. It seemed like Ohio, very down-to-earth and basic, older men in flannel shirts...And there was this feast going on. I felt like I was in this weird position because I had to act like everything was OK when I was furious. And he was taking NO repsonsibility for his actions. He was not upset about it, he wasn't happy about it, he was just NEUTRAL. ZOMMMMMMMbified. So then in this household, in the kitchen area, I saw my Godfather, who lives in Pennsylvania. And I felt this really strong sense of security and excitement to see someone there that I knew because there were all these strangers in this intense emotional situation. And uh, that's when I woke up. But this dream keeps happening and it's always a different woman and always a different setting but it's the same thing. Somebody is attacking him, or luring him, and he's totally zombified and I'm right there. This dream keeps happening over and over. And it seems to happen every time he works late or goes out of town for a job. He's a computer graphics artist, so sometimes he works until 1,2, 3,4 in the morning. And every time he's late this dream happens. So I think the woman might be work, or some element of his work, that's sapping him emotionally becasue he's completely emotion-LESS, in the dream, every time. I dunno; I'm sure Mike has something to psychoanalyze about that. |
